I'm sorry, I seem to have forgotten about you....just a tiny little bit. So much has been going on since the last time I wrote on here and time has gone by so fast. I know I've been told repeatedly time is going to keep on going by faster and faster, but at the rate it's going it's just going way too fast.
Anyway, I definitely have a lot of things on my mind at the moment; the top two things being 1. the end of my first year of college next week and 2. the fact that is sucks being rejected!
Allow me to elaborate on the second part - around this time last month I found out about a contest that YouTube was running. This contest was the answer to everything for me...at least I thought. YouTube ran a contest to choose people for their brand new Creator Institute and NextUp, which was a contest for people who already had a YouTube partnership. Since I'm a newer YouTuber the Creator Institute was perfect for me! Twenty total winners would receive the chance of a lifetime - they could choose between two colleges (University of Southern California located in Los Angeles or Columbia College in Chicago), and you would be able to attend a 4 - 8 week program and learn from top professionals and find out how to perfect their film-making...all expenses paid. By all expenses paid, that means flight, meals, tuition, room and board, and to top it all off, they would also be given an extra $1,000 in order to purchase new camera equipment. This opportunity literally had "me" written all over it, but as of this moment, it appears that it isn't happening. Talking to others who applied for the Institute, the group I've met didn't qualify for the top 50 for either school and that really sucks, especially since there was only 185 videos.
185 videos and the group I've been speaking to couldn't even make it into 100 videos to move onto the third round? That sucks. Who knows, I'm still putting out hope that something will happen and someone will say, "Well, wait a second...she deserves to go." Even if I did get that point, I wouldn't be able to tell anyone as there is a confidentiality clause in the agreement until May 2nd...so hope for my sake that I find out I get to go, through some crazy turn of events, and I find out April 30th so I don't have to be bursting at the seams to tell the world, "I'm going to LA!"
See, my problem with this whole competition was mostly due to the fact that they could change the days of EVERYTHING. When I applied, I found out about the contest 4 days before the deadline, so I had a very limited amount of time to put in my submission and application which also consisted of two short answer questions. After I submitted my video, the deadline to apply was extended to the 31st of March...that should've been my first cue that this wouldn't end up the way I wanted it to, but I just shrugged it off and said it was because it wasn't that known about. I couldn't even tell you how I managed to stumble upon it, but I did...either way, I wasn't allowed to fix my submission, which sucked.
I didn't even think I would make it past the submission stage, but through some magical power, I was in to round 2, my least favorite part. Round 2 was all about the public voting to try and get their favorite videos into the next and final round. The first few days were fine, but then I discovered that you couldn't even see where you stood among your peers, which was extremely aggravating...especially since a lot of the people who applied had well over 500 subscribers and some were even actual partner videos where they included more than one person. My video and channel on YouTube? It's all just me and my grand total of subscriptions is ten...80% of those subscriptions are from people I know.
Still, I took to Facebook to try and gain votes, but as it turned out a select group of people were down-voting my video, stating that my video was "terrible" and that I should "give up" because I wouldn't be able to do anything. Those comments stung, but I wasn't going to let it stop me. I wanted this for myself and I'm sick and tired of so many people telling me to be "practical." I don't want to be practical. I've been wanting to entertain people since I was extremely little and if this contest was the answer, I was taking it.
However, as it seems, this contest was NOT the answer, or at least at this particular moment in time it isn't.
Still, I'm going to keep trying. As much as people don't like Miley Cyrus, her song The Climb definitely gets me through...and of course Lady Gaga's Born This Way. To sum things up with the use of those two songs - no one is going to break me down, I was born to entertain people and be a little strange...no one is ever going to stop me from following my dreams. I might aggravate people along the way, step on a few toes, but they're not going to change me.
I know my video isn't the best, but I worked with what I had...I'm proud of what I came up with.
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